I can't answer the question for you , but me its an absolute compulsion to make things, learn things, achieve things and do what i love. Sometimes i am not doing what i love though, i am spending hours and hours on the computer, i am answering hundreds of customer e mails , packing boxes at 2am as i have to go to work in the morning [ as a make up artist] and be up in time to find an early post office before work.
I don't see my friends as much as i would like, i don't go to the beach enough, i am very intolerant of poor work ethics and poor workmanship but i think if you are like me and have a small creative business you will understand.
When you are self employed there is no such thing as lunch hours, sick pay, not showing up, ignoring clients, going home at 5.30, it does not exist.
Rejection and bad things happening make me work harder.
I am going to soon share the story of an ongoing nightmare going on in my life where i have experienced poor work ethics, negligence, appalling workmanship from a company that advertise themselves as the top end of glossy architecture, when they are in fact at the lowest end of the food chain.
Please keep growing upwards.